Caitlin Jackson

Caitlin Jackson shares with us her peice from Long Story Short.

For my first segment I want to discuss she hulk because, of how it explores the suppression of feminist rage and uproars, contained on the daily which all get ignored, in a world where sexism is still so flawed.

When she hulk gains her hulk powers she thrives, hulk claimed it took him years to revive, His emotions and anger and comprise them into a more orderly light.

But she hulk had already fought this fight. Of feeling angry and raging to the highest height, but having to push them all aside, because females aren't taken seriously when their periods arrive, having to push against the tide, mood swings, pain she's had to hide.

When she hulks blows up in her rage, she's breaking free from her emotionless cage, we should all be allowed a she hulk phase, at the time of month where everything feels different and nothing feels the same,

Still feel ashamed, of the p word that shall not be named, But its to blame for the hormones rushing through us like flames, and dictates how we react and behave, And what gets me enraged, is the lack of laws for period poverty campaigns,

The cost of living crisis will cause a strain, four thousand nine hundred spent in a lifetimes insane, an essential some cant financially sustain, 

On products u should not flush down the drain. Scrunch and hide them in your hand when you go to change, this behavior of hiding is so strange, like a periods a secret we’ll take to the grave, when the populations lit by 49.5 percent female flames.

When its that time again, we feel that hormonal strain, where we have to refrain, from complaining about stomach pain, because all women have it the same so whos to complain, about the heightened feelings oppressed until made insane, its a subject we have to mansplain, its purely female terrain, as our iron counts drain, in constant fear of red stain, appearing on our behind like a villain, ‘god have I leaked’ just ingrained in the brain. 

Spending ten years on our periods in total, is a fact yes anecdotal but its ten years of bodily struggle, feeling more anti-social, emotions feel fragile and could break like a petal, words sharp as metal, emotions unsettled, and just feeling more temperamental.

We cant book annual leave off our cycle, plead our ovaries to reschedule, for bikini holidays, just have to handle, as it comes supposedly tidal, hence to name menstrual. Periods have similar cycle to the lunar,  before the invention of clocks and calanders, theyd use it to guess when a month was over, and thought both were intermittent powers. Syncing with female household members is another undetermined factor, but living in a house just me and my mother, when both ovulating is a hormonal disaster.

Its proven female athletes are slightly less able to perform during their cycle, I had to run a marathon on mine which is just typical, periods deter sporting potential, and make it more painful to try and be physical, yet its unavoidable. And then theres the scares when things are abnormal, a switch and change that's unignorable, and you make the mistake of checking google… and read more than a hypochondriac can handle.

For me it just It kept coming after one month, 2 3 and 4, After 3 years of nothing at all, And I know the body keeps the score, but only after intense pain I called, to report the discomfort and find some support.

Thinking it was just a weird reaction, to the implant I use for contraception, I was called in for a downstairs inspection, there was no expectation for a label, just some indication that everythings working in my lower direction. But the doctor spotted a collection, of abnormal cells on the the womb section, causing the extra production, of progesterone and irregular menstruation. I was still lacking an explanation of what would happen next, until the realization, there is no help given as the research hasnt been proven, tested tried there's no solution. Why is there a lack of inclusion for female health research when we give birth to humans.

Im twenty three, wondering if I can have a family, the doctor didnt even mention infertility and the effects endometriosis might have on me, my mum has it too as its hereditary, yet the diagnosis felt solitary, I have an idea suspectedly, that contraception affects the body, to the point cells become disorderly, and what's funny, is I wasn't expecting a medical discovery.

This year I experienced some terrible grief, ‘my bodys had a shock’ was my belief, but I can advise if this happens to anybody, please go and speak to your GP. But also we have to try not to worry, it's out of our hands and there's no guarantee, the chance of being infertile is 1 out of 3, there's no point fighting something you can't foresee, lets just keep ourselves happy and healthy.

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